// Day 44 //

I am going to take control of my life. If I want something, I will go for it. Or I will try to. Because I can’t be a backseat driver in the story of my life any longer.

It’s a new year and I am dedicating 2012 to none other than yours truly. Without you, Dad, I realize now how dependent I was on your advice and direction for me. I cannot change my circumstances. How I react and what happens next is in my control.

I keep trying (obsessively) to find the lesson within all of this. Rather than constantly looking for what I should be learning or gaining from this, I am accepting the truth and peace that when the time is right, I will come out a better, stronger me.